CHANGE

I am not too good at accepting change and God knows in the past fews months I have seen a lot of change. Retirement, selling a house I loved, moving and renting for the first time in 37 years, facing breast cancer and having my family dimension change.  So how am I handling it ? I am trying and trying hard.  I have many decisions to make as a result of all of these changes, but I am seeking out people who care about me and I am beginning to care about myself more than I have in the past.  So, I am trying to make CHANGE by spelling it.

C=  Clarity in thinking
H=  Having a purpose in life.
A=  Adjustments when necessary
N=  Nothing, EXPECT nothing.
G=  Get active
E=  Enjoy!

C=  Clarity in thinking....I have a lot of chatter going on in my mind and to quiet these thoughts I am meditating.  This is new and some days it is difficult, but in order "to change" I need to continue this practice.

H=  Having a purpose in life.  I have spent my whole entire life thinking of "others."  I ALWAYS put my kids first and it is important to me to have a good relationship with my children, my brother and my niece, but now I realize life goes on and everyone has their own life. I wanted things to remain constant, as they were, but that's not how it is.  So, it is time for me, however much time I have to find my purpose.

A=  Adjustments when necessary.  Building on having a purpose, I am dealing with making adjustments.  My body has definitely changed, I need to find a place to live and I need to "adjust" to not having my family as it once was. Adjustment means making or becoming suitable or adjusting to circumstances. 

N=  Nothing, EXPECT NOTHING!  When we expect something from someone or a situation we truly get disappointed when promises are broken, an anticipated meeting is cancelled, a loved one stops loving, or even when a disease such as cancer arrives unannounced.  But, if we expect nothing for all situations and then the promises are met, an anticipated meeting goes wonderfully, a loved one comes through in a loving way, or when you become enlightened by getting a disease like cancer then a feeling of excitement and gratitude is experienced. 

G= Get active.  Move and be moved.  Realizing that you are heading into some direction is moving!

E= Enjoy.  Look for simple pleasures each day.  Opening the curtains in the house, looking at the sky each and every day, read, play with a pet, whatever it is just enjoy each moment.