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Tuesday, April 19, 2011

CHANGE

I am not too good at accepting change and God knows in the past fews months I have seen a lot of change. Retirement, selling a house I loved, moving and renting for the first time in 37 years, facing breast cancer and having my family dimension change.  So how am I handling it ? I am trying and trying hard.  I have many decisions to make as a result of all of these changes, but I am seeking out people who care about me and I am beginning to care about myself more than I have in the past.  So, I am trying to make CHANGE by spelling it.

C=  Clarity in thinking
H=  Having a purpose in life.
A=  Adjustments when necessary
N=  Nothing, EXPECT nothing.
G=  Get active
E=  Enjoy!

C=  Clarity in thinking....I have a lot of chatter going on in my mind and to quiet these thoughts I am meditating.  This is new and some days it is difficult, but in order "to change" I need to continue this practice.

H=  Having a purpose in life.  I have spent my whole entire life thinking of "others."  I ALWAYS put my kids first and it is important to me to have a good relationship with my children, my brother and my niece, but now I realize life goes on and everyone has their own life. I wanted things to remain constant, as they were, but that's not how it is.  So, it is time for me, however much time I have to find my purpose.

A=  Adjustments when necessary.  Building on having a purpose, I am dealing with making adjustments.  My body has definitely changed, I need to find a place to live and I need to "adjust" to not having my family as it once was. Adjustment means making or becoming suitable or adjusting to circumstances. 

N=  Nothing, EXPECT NOTHING!  When we expect something from someone or a situation we truly get disappointed when promises are broken, an anticipated meeting is cancelled, a loved one stops loving, or even when a disease such as cancer arrives unannounced.  But, if we expect nothing for all situations and then the promises are met, an anticipated meeting goes wonderfully, a loved one comes through in a loving way, or when you become enlightened by getting a disease like cancer then a feeling of excitement and gratitude is experienced. 

G= Get active.  Move and be moved.  Realizing that you are heading into some direction is moving!

E= Enjoy.  Look for simple pleasures each day.  Opening the curtains in the house, looking at the sky each and every day, read, play with a pet, whatever it is just enjoy each moment.

Monday, April 4, 2011

Breast Cancer Options Conference

To make the final decision on whether to "do" chemo or not, my husband Fred and I "trekked" up to New Paltz, NY to the 10th annual Breast Cancer Options Conference. WOW!  What a great conference.  The lecturers/speakers were wonderful. What an informational conference.  I would totally recommend going to this conference for anyone who wants to PREVENT, GOING THROUGH TREATMENT or is a breast cancer SURVIVOR. The name of the organization that was responsible for this wonderful conference is called Breast Cancer Options in Kingston, New York. (You can google it) For more information on this conference and the information I received please feel free to email me @ peggyessl@gmail.com